I am weary.
I need rest.
My burden is heavy.
My soul is restless.
If I am honest with myself, these are the truths that are currently hidden beneath my tongue.
I know why they are there. As a family, we are facing a lot of uncertainty in the next coming months. Mike’s company is moving all of his office’s operations overseas by the end of 2014. We are welcoming our second child at the end of the summer. There are a lot of logistics and what ifs to worry about.
Usually, I can “see” ahead and make some loose plans. But since I’ve learned I was pregnant, I haven’t been able to see past my delivery. Partially because I don’t know what the baby’s personality will be like. Malone’s newborn days were REALLY hard one me. He wasn’t a sleeper. Or a napper. I also don’t know how Malone will adjust to being an older brother. And did I mention that right after Labor Day he’s going to start preschool at a new school?
This is one of my places of rest. We are headed there this weekend. I am blessed that my mother in law lives within walking distance. My husband grew up at this beach.
Hearing the waves crashing and seeing a sunrise painted just for me is exactly what I need. I’m clinging to my faith these days as tightly as I can. There are times when I feel like that’s about all that I’ve got.
His yoke is easy and his burden is light.
Lots of changes ahead for you- but it will all work out.
and being so near the beach helps!
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You are right! Thanks Shell!
Nancyjo – great blog, as always. You are a wonderful and honest writer. 🙂 The photo is amazing. Glad to hear you are clinging to your faith. If God is the most important thing in your life then everything else will fall into place. I know what it is like to worry/stress about the future especially lately with my job search. It seems like it is feast or famine. A couple weeks ago I had nothing then today I was offered two nanny jobs and asked by a third family to do a 1 week trial, plus I was contacted by two other families that were interested.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? … Matthew 6:25-34
I know life feels overwhelming right now. Everything you are feeling is normal. Maybe it is good that you can’t “see” to plan your future so you stay open to possibilities that God has in store for your family that you may never have thought of. I also know that is scary too. Life as we both know, often takes unexpected turns and sometimes they turn out better than than what we could have hoped or planned ourselves. Keep the faith sister! Love you! Praying for you!
Thanks Carrie! Do you want a copy of it?
I feel ya, sister. We have a lot of potential change on the horizon as well. In a weird way I like it–change, renewal, rebirth. Oh, and I am OBSESSED with the pics you post of Malone and his awesome kid wardrobe!
Thanks! These days are so so so hard! I can’t tell if I’m into liking this change or not. Either way I don’t really have a choice. You’re right… Malone’s wardrobe is pretty awesome!
I saw a quote recently that said “It will work out in the end, and if it doesn’t work out, it’s not the end.” As you know, we just passed through a period of insecurity and I know that Henry was feeling very anxious about finding a new job because of the new baby. We are not out of the woods yet but we can see the clearing ahead. You just have to roll with the punches sometimes. Better to not dwell on the unknown and to just live in the present. The plan will reveal itself soon enough.
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You are so right Nancy! The hardest part is the unknown, but maybe that’s also the fun part?
The beach is a comforting place for me, as well. Hope you get some relaxation time this weekend – I am sure that you will face each new change as it happens, even if planning is sometimes difficult.
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Thanks! So far there has been a lot of rain, but it has been a relaxing time.
Don’t know why but I do understand your thoughts. Being uncertain about something is not something I take lightly specially when there are changes involved. I pray for your wellbeing and your continued faith in God. Hang in there. And congrats on your new baby coming 🙂
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Thank you so much. This time is such a hard one…the unknowns are really hard!
I’m so sorry to hear you are going through such stressful times! 🙁 When I moved here in 2007, I gave up the stable job and guaranteed paycheck so I could finish school. Since then, it has been one stressor after another. I’ve had very little stability since I moved here, so you are not alone. My entire future is an unknown at this point. I don’t know if I’ll stay in this area (depends on where I find work after graduation), and I am surviving on student loans and G.I. Bill. If you ever need to vent or just hang out and have some fun and not think about the unknowns, let me know. I’ll keep you guys in my thoughts as the days go on. My mantra is that no matter how unknown things may seem at the time, it really all does work out. I have been living by that since I moved here, and things have always had a way of working out. They will for you too.